He's a farmer

So far, it has been 17 years together with Ant and Qiang. Usually I would be their part-time companion. I would either be hang-out with either one, unless time allows we will definitely meet up together.

On this special day, we catch our what we missed last weekend. From his conversation, I realize that in his specialism, he's like a farmer. I don't see him so much as what he works as but what he does and how he does it. The process is simple, he plants the seeds and wait for harvesting. But in between this waiting process, he has to take note of many little process, like watering them, look after them, etc...and at the end of harvesting, in fact during harvesting he had to expect couple of failures. Isn't that what life is about or should be?

Gangs Of New York

Consider the one of the busiest city today, New York had her very own story to tell in the "Gangs Of New York", a film by Martin Scorsese.

This story was told in the time of New York Draft Riots,
that break loose on July 11 to July 16, 1863, where a Irish American young man, Amsterdam Vallon (Leonardo DiCaprio) who held vengeance against his enemy, Bill William Cutting (Cameron Diaz).

Cutting killed Amsterdam's father (Priest) in a battle between the Natives (True Americans) and the Dead Rabbits (Other Races, mainly Irish), and little Amsterdam was locked up in the Hell Gate for 16 years. Cutting was fighting for his father's name as an true American, who hated the
Irish, and the African Americans, whereas Priest fought for his fellows. Amsterdam never understood his father's action, all he cared was to revenge.

On the other hand, Boss Tweet, consider one of the most corrupted politician ever in American history, sided whichever party that benefits him. In order to stay in his post, he had to get votes, which upset the New Yorkers.

This films tells me, at least, about how corruption and racism can overturn a city, which brings death and misery.

However, if the story was meant to be written and presented in a confusing manner, it succeeded. I was lost couple of times during the show. At times I was pretty disturbed by the soundtracks and sound effects, and I realized one part, where sound mis-match.
I wasn't very much impressed by the camera angles, not that it's bad, but it's fair.
As for the ending, it's good but maybe could end in another way.

During the 190mins, as the show proceeding something reoccurring in my mind, the 1964 Race Riots in Singapore (Geyland). I always tell my friends and family that...One day, I'm going to bring this story up onto the screen, to commemorate Racial Harmony Day.
I know it sounds ridiculous and corny, but as much as I concern, it's my dream, not that I'm patriotic but at least to me......

"Our past is the torch that lights our way."

3 and the half pop corns.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QRKx7hd3X9k&feature=related

[Link to the Trailer]

Perfectly Comfortable

There are many people get upset, disappointed
even depress when things ain't perfect.

Whereas some got frustrated and uncomfortable with the word "Perfect",
and they hate The Perfectionist.

However how many people who go thought such emotions wonder what Perfect is all about?

Everyone in the world out there definitely had think about or discuss about this word over and over again. I've heard all kinds of answers - the holistic ones, the wise ones, the smart ones, the stupid ones, the inspiring one...but non makes me comfortable.

The best answer always comes from oneself who realize what's the best answer for him -

Perfection is an idea which is not being executed, as it has not been executed it is perfect.

Barbarians Vs Modernist

Before I actually finish reading "God Explained In A Taxi Ride" by Paul Arden, not even half way through, something strikes me.

I will not literally share with you how good this book is,
but what I've come out with after reading.

Here We Go -

One day 3 barbarians dying of thirst. They were so desperate of water, so they prayed to the Rain God. Rain God gave them rain and they celebrated in joy, dancing in the rain.

One Million years later, 3 modernists suffered the same situation like the barbarians. They prayed to their individual God, and it rained. However, instead of celebrating in joy, they were arguing which God heard their Prayer.

-The End-

Excessive [過渡期]

A glass, empty, waiting to be filled:

- I stare into the space; an emptiness.
(The space I'm having, the emptiness I have)


A glass, filling, waiting to be filled:

- I smoked; filling up the emptiness
(The element I used to fill my emptiness)

A glass, half filled, half empty

- Looking thru. the contact list; venting
(I'm only half way filled)

A glass, filled/empty

- Reaches the limit/nothingness
(I looked empty but I'm filled; I'm filled but I looked empty)

A glass, overflow

- Over the limit; Excessive
(I'm filled, messed up and I crashed)

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The last week of my summer break
I realize how much time I have
24hours a day, 168hours in total.
I'm suppose to relax and slow down after a 2 months rush.
However I felt extremely depress.
It's the space that makes me depress -
apart from research and developing
Ant's Track Video and Grace&Guan Chang's Wedding Video,
I've nothing to do.
I looked thru. my contact list, msn list...
Depress.



Space is only useful if I made use of them, but I'm tensed, tight.
My mind is not resting a single min, just like my blood never stop flowing.
I could feel my cell gathering making my tissue
tightening my muscle
pumping the blood vigorously thru. the vain to my brain -
It's like filled and overflowing with memories, ideas, disappointment, fear, death, etc...



It was a self-realization that this is a excessive period, I've to bypass this -
Excessive Period is a never ending period, it comes and go as and when he likes...

My space is just like a glass, empty.
Slowly it's filling, all kinds of funny thoughts starts pouring in.
I'm getting moody but it never stop...it's unstoppable.
Resulting in overflowing.

*Do not ask me why I choose such a scene to film, figure out yourself.

Dialogue In Between [時話]

I believe that this piece of work is a break through for me
compare to previous works I had, I start playing with lighting and sound.
It was a stressful and worrying process but like what I say, there's always
at least a solution to a question.

I really hope to see comments, regardless good or bad, please find fault with me.
I really appreciate it.

The Person You Need To WIn - Youself

This is the 3rd time I completed a marathon.
Nothing special compare to lot of people out there.
However what make one special is what kind of mentality is he holding.

When I officially started my marathon journey,
it was tough, it was my buddy, Warren Chew who gave me a goal to achieve,
"If I start lifting up my legs and start running, I'll not let it stop until I finish."

When I achieved this goal, I set another goal,
"Even no one train with me, I train alone..."
[Even I'm alone, I still can get things done, I don't need a wall.]

This mentality lasted till my first marathon, Adidas Sundown 2009.
After Sundown 2009, I strongly believe in 1 Chinese saying,
"台上1分鐘，台下10年工" - it simply means you've to spend longer
and more time practicing, just for that 1 moment. - Also, the slogan for
Adidas, "Impossible Is Nothing".

Few months later before Standard Charted Marathon 2009, I continue keeping
this mentality to run and my timing that year proved me that, my mentality is stronger than
6 months ago.




In 2010, I completed my 2nd Adidas Sundown Marathon again, but this time round I'm other than my mental is stronger, I came out with something which I find it very true.

- Results-

For pass 6 months, regardless long run or short run, I'm always arranging this idea of mine -
"Running is the best to explain Life."

- You don't have to keep up to others pace when you can't, keep it to your own pace. As you keep on training, one day you might just keep up to his pace or even faster. First, you have to find out what kind of pace is the best for you, and you gradually improve - another words, understand yourself. You don't have to rush, just be honest and admit that you're not at that standard yet. Put your winning ego down, you can't be the best, because it just don't exist. Who we're always challenging is ourselves, to push yourself further, nearer to the limits. No matter what, there's always an ending point waiting for us, it is how much you had enjoy the run and how much you have experience during the run. -



This is what I've been thinking all these while, it is not very true, but it's the best for me right now.



- The moment you step over the finishing line, your life changed -



- The Pain I Endure -




- The boys that spend money to torture themselves -

Reason for me to run: For The T-Shirt and The Medal - It significant that, I've once again win myself.